I'm feeling emo now.

Reality scares me. 15 days left. Nothing's right.

I'm constantly being so lethargic these few days, not to mention that I've always been, but, it's been to the extent that even the vice principal's words refuse to sink in. My energy is mainly all exerted entirely to band, and also, trying my best to stay awake in lessons. Consolation is not working well either because, that would be that SYF is coming in 20 plus days.

Then, to make it much worse, you have teachers constantly showing two sided emotions to only confuse you. This applies to academics and what nots. Then, I tend to get pissed at the most unnecessary incidents but, I do think I was one dumb fool to choose St Anthony's as my school. We have dumb people coming up with the most ridiculous rules as if they'd had nothing better to do. In what way would letting our school girls not be in the classrooms during lunchtime, enhance their little brain, hopefully that they'd use the time to catch up on work? Oh I understand, you'd rather us, become much much much like your damn size, as a result of having too much for lunch. How selfish. Then coming on to another situation, I can simply put this in one sentence. You demand THIS much from us, but when we want THIS much, this much returns. We can plainly decide not to get a gold. Or worse still, not a silver. Alright, I might be spouting nonsense.

I'm downing my sorrows and depression in orange juice. Sorrows is a huge word. Maybe not. I'm just downing my emotions in juice. And the smell of tabasco sauce continues to sting my nose although it was already a few minutes ago he was drinking up on tabasco.

My mom gave a few suggestions of my confirmation name. I do not have to listen to her, because I disagree with almost everything she says these few days. She suggested, either ridiculous or common and cliche names, no offence to those who own these names but, well.

Audrey Pang Sai Liaw
Audrey Virgin Liaw
Audrey Nicolette Liaw
Audrey Samantha Liaw

What the.

Then my brother started saying, get some egyptian names. Like Iskan----, then he started spouting nonsense, Audrey Siti Liaw, Audrey Shafiqah Liaw, etc. I can't believe I belong to this family.

My mom favours the name Ruth, but hates Meagan. I love Meagan. Then again, there's no saint named as such. Oh wells. I think I'll just not submit my name this week. Haha. But then again, Theresse just said Elizabeth sounds nice but I should re-spell it or so. Oh and while searching for names, I found out that names such as "Starbuck" and "Brilliant" exists. Oh yes, and dearest Natalie Koh, suggested...Fuckerdoo. Audrey Fuckerdoo Liaw. How brilliant. I can't wait to be confirmed and have the archbishop say my name. Lmao!

Tomorrow is going to be a waste of time.

Oh and I see really interesting tags, but I don't wanna flood my own tagboard. So I'm sorry but I won't be replying. Haha.

Mrs Audrey Cullum

MRS AUDREY CULLUM
9:11 PM